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For the past few months I've woken up on the left side of the bed.
I can't even hear the pretty birds chirp anymore and the sunrise seems to burn my skin instead of warm it.
What's the worse part of the story? I'm not sure I even sleep at all.
I can't remember the last time I had any meaningful dream— in fact I no longer dream. It's all his fault! All his bloody fault!
You've got that right. It's the new guy in the next flat.
Why? How? I don't know, you go ask him why I dislike him this much.




She is always at the church premises by 6am wearing some faded jeans, an old T shirt and some slippers. She always comes to clean the chapel and arrange the seats. For six years she has never missed a single Sunday coming to clean the place. On this faithful day a young man walked into the chapel while she was still cleaning. He went and sat down watching as the lady cleaned. He was impressed that a lady who looked quite good even in the old cloths and a scarf over her hair could be so dedicated to her work in church. He thought within himself that this was an unfortunate lady who probably had not gotten anyone to take care of her schooling and now she would probably be an orange seller or some petty trader struggling to make ends meet. He watched and within his heart he felt he now knew what God wanted him to do. When he had felt a compulsion to come very early to church he had not understood but now he thought he did. He went back to his car and took out two 50 cedis notes and when the lady finished her work and was about to leave he called her and commended her for her service and gave her the notes. She respectfully declined the gift but he insisted pressing it into her hands. He asked if she lived close by or if he could go drop her so she would not be late. She thanked him and told him that her car was nearby, but he did not comprehend or even try to understand what she had just said. He walked her out determined to find out all he could about this lady that God wanted him to help change her level. They walked out of the chapel with him telling her where he worked and how God had asked him to come early to church that day and how he believed God is directing him to help make a big difference in her life. He was so busy talking he had not realized they had walked directly to a car parked under some trees in the parking lot. The car made his one year old Benz look like a worn out wheel barrow. The lady opened the driver’s door stepped in and handed over her card to the man and said, “I believe God sent you here for a purpose, but I do not think it was to change my level, May be it was to change yours.” I am tempted to say it took a forklift to shut the young man's mouth and move him from the place he was glued to as the lady drove off. God had a purpose for bringing him to church that morning and that purpose was to teach him humility which he learnt well because now two people always clean the chapel when everyone fails to show up. Many times we think so highly of ourselves that where God sends us to learn we go trying to teach. We may be men created in the image of God but at one time ants shall be the professors seeking to impart knowledge to us only if we are humble enough to learn.
Stay blessed, be humble, trust and obey.

#Copied from Young Readers Club


This isn't just another conventional book about a teenager. There are no fantasies (like Disney) here, no perfect relationships, life isn't peachy at all. A. S. King brings us into the life of Astrid Jones just as it is.
Astrid is a seventeen year old girl trying to find her way through life and has some difficulties defining her sexuality.
She spends her time on a picnic table, sending love to passengers in airplanes all the time.
For two years she has kept the secrets of her friends, Kristina and Justin, whose relationship is too good to be true.
Astrid's own secret comes out after the cops bust her and her friends at Atlantis, a gay bar, and her dad has to pick her up.

This book only takes a few hours to read.
Well-done to A. S. King for this book.


Today while going through Facebook, I came accross Tinuke Mercede's Facebook account. I saw these pictures on her wall and I was nearly in tears. These are just a few of them.

And I just wondered, please remind me again, what's this life really all about? 
There's more to life than our own lives, more than getting rich. Then I also wondered what it is that I'm doing to help others. 💔



Hey this is really true and see it will work for you too..

If U were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month U r number 1….
If U were born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then U r number 2…
If U were born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then U r number 3…
If U were born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then U r number 4…
If U were born on the 5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then U r number 5…
If U were born on the 6th, 15th, 24th of any month then U r number 6…
If U were born on the 7th, 16th, 25th of any month then U r number 7…
If U were born on the 8th,17th,26th of any month then U r number 8…
If U were born on the 9th,18th,27th of any month then U r number 9

Number 1
You are smart, straight talking, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest,Jealous on competing basis, kind hearted, angry, friendly, authorities, Famous person… always want to be and regarded as first on people position, they are often like to be independent, will never be under others, self confident people!
You are most likely to fall in love in the younger age, but will get marry when you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views
And you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future.
If you are guy you will be very popular that everybody will have mental attraction and respect at you. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of the parliament because you are positive and well talented in numerous issues!! But in your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you & your name down. This is undercover!! Coz of your smart behavior you will be hated by some people too…
Your family life is very cool, you will have a very nice partner & wonderful children… You are pioneer, independent & original…
Your best match is 4,6,8 good match is 3,5,7 !!!

Number 2
No matter what, you will be loved by every one coz your ruler is the moon and every one loves the Moon. Well.. You are a person who day dream a lot, you have very low-self confidence, you need back up for every move in your life, you are very much unpredictable. Means you do change according to time and circumstances, kind a selfish, have a very strong sense of musical, artistic talent, verbal communication.
Your attitudes are like the Moon, comes to gloom and fade away so everybody can expect changes in you. You can be a next Mahatma Gandhi who does peace love or you can be a Hitler who wants to destroy the man kind and peace (I mean in the community and your own home).
If you really have a deep thought about your own believe in God you can feel the difference which will make you stronger! Most of the time your words are a kind of would be happening true! So without any knowledge you can predict the situation. You will become poets, writers, any Artistic business people!
You are not strong in love, so you will be there and here till you get marry.. If U r a girl you will be a responsible woman in the whole family. If U r a man you will involve in fights & arguments in the family or Vice-versa. Means you will sacrifice your life for the goodness sake of Your family…You are gentle , intuitive with a broad vision, a power behind the scenes, well balanced People!!!
Your best match is 2 ,5 ,9 no other people can put up with you !!!

Number 3
You are a person of hard hearted, selfish most of the times, religious, loves to climb up in your life. You always tend to have lots of problems within your family in the early stages but you will put up with everything.. You have the strong word power, pretty happy face.. So wherever you go always you have got what you wanted!!! And from the birth always wanted to work hard in order to achieve something.. You will not get anything without hardwork! When you reach a man/ woman age you want other younger once to listen to you because you want younger people to respect people older than them. You do set so many examples to others.
Generally you are not a cool person. It’s not easy thing dealing with you. A tough player you are! But once you like someone’s attitude then here you go, what can I say? It will be a lasting friendship. You always have respect from others.
Your life seems to have lots of worries and problems but sure they won’t be long.. you will always have brilliant kids!!! You love the money a bit too much so temptation will push you to endless trying and trying.. If you are a guy then it’s over. Looking after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being generous and kind (except 21st born men). And number 3s you will
be such an example of how to be in the culture & life!!! If you are girl then you have good character and culture & hardworking attitude. You always follow.
You are a freedom lover, creative, ambition focused, a person who brings beauty , hope & joy to this world!!!
Your best match 6 ,9. Good match 1 ,3 ,5 !!!

Number 4
You are very stubborn too, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in life, very cool, helpful, you have rough word power.. Might put lots of people away from you, you may cause nuisance to others if you are a man, and you often understands others and their problems well. If you are a girl you are very good with studies and arts. If you are a guy you spend most of the time after girl friends (almost) at times, you will have sort of too much fun life with mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and get away with their life and you will become empty handed and don’t know what to do… So be careful!! You love to spend anyway!!!
Your good will is you are always there to help family and friends. Tell you what you people are little gem! s, specially the girls.. You always fall in love in younger age as well. You often live with disappointments, for an example you have got a degree in some thing… but you will be unemployed.. or will do very ordinary jobs.
But you will take care of your family very well…All you need to be careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart. And beware of your relations too..
You are radical, patient, persistent,a bit old-fashioned, you live with foundation & order…
Your best Match 1, 8. Good match 5 ,6 , 7 !!!

Number 5
You are very popular within the community, you can get things done by just even enemies! You have a pretty good business mind, you are often have no-idea what is today is like, or tomorrow is like, you are a person who does anything when your head thinks “lets do this”. You will be famous if you open up a business, get involve in share dealings, music etc.. Very popular with sense of humor ,you are the one your friends and families will always ask for help, and you are the one actually get money on credit and help your friends. You will have more than 1 relationship, but when u get settle down you will be a bit selfish anyway. Coz your other half will have a pretty good amount of control in you, be careful! You tend to go for other relationships! Contacts even you are married at times ‘coz your popularity..
You are someone who get along with anyone coz the number 5 is the middle number.. Changes & freedom lovers you are! You are an explorer with magic on your face. You learn your life through experience and it’s your best teacher!!!
Your best match 1 ,2 ,9. Good match 6 ,8 !!!

Number 6 are born to enjoy.. You don’t care about others. I mean you are always want to enjoy your life time, you are a person.. You will be very good in either education or work wise or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people who you think are nice), very beautiful girls and guys, popular and more than lucky with anything in your lives. All the goodness does come with you. Your mind and body is just made perfect for love.
You are lovable by any other numbers. But if you are a number 6 man, you will experience kind of looks from most girls and will involve in more than few relationships until you get married. If you are girl, most of you will get marry/engaged early. You are a caring person towards your family & friends .
If you miss the half-way mark then you are about to suffer physically and mentally. Generally you will lead a very good inner-home happiness with nothing short of. You are a person of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and after all you can heal this world wounds to make peace for every life coz you have the great power of caring talent to make this world of love one step further…
Your best match 1, 6, 9. Good match 4, 5 !!!

Number 7
You have got the attraction to anyone out there, you are realistic, very confident, happy, such a talented individual with your education, music, arts, singing, and most importantly acting too. You have real problems with bad temper! If you are a girl, you are popular with the subjects listed above.
You give up things for your parents. I mean you value your family status a lot, you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls, you are a very talented too. Most of the number 7s face lots of problems with their marriage life.
Only a very few are happy. You have everything in your life, but still always number 7s have some sort of unfullfilness, such worries all their lifetime.
It’s probably the Lord given you all sort of over the standard humans talents and you are about to suffer in family life. So you need to get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don’t, then you might end-up single. So take care with this issue, ok?
You are wonderful, friendly, artistic, happy person.. You are born to contribute lots to this world!!!
Your best match is 2. Good matches are 1,4 !!!

Number 8
You are a very strong personality, there’s no one out there will understand you. You are very good at pointing your finger at some thing and say “this is what”.
You are more likely to suffer from the early ages. I mean poverty. If your times are not good you might lose either of your parent and end up looking after your entire family. You often suffer all the way in life.
The problems will not allow you to study further, but you will learn the life in a very practical way. You are the one who will fight for justice and may die in the war too. You are normally very reserved with handful of friends and most of the time live life lonely and always prepared to help others.
Well. once you get married (which is often late) then your bad lucks will go away a bit and you! u become safe. You will face un-expected problems such as :
the error, government, poisonous animals, accidents.
You are some one with great discipline, persistence, courage, strength which will take you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter!
Your Best match 1 ,4, 8. Good match 5 !!!

Number 9
Hey…you guys are the incompatibles people in the world. You are so strong, physically and mentally… You are often have big-aims. You will work hard and hard to get there. Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will have fighting life.. But when you achieve what you have done, it’s always a big task you have done! You are so much respected in the community, you are a person who can make a challenge and successfully finish the matter off.
You are very naughty in your younger age, often beaten up by your parents and involve in fights and you seemed to have lots of injuries in your life time. But when u grow you become calm and macho type.
Love is not an easy matter for you. You are good in engineering or banking jobs coz people always trust you.
Your family life is very good, but will have worries over your children.
Your such qualities are humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate.
You are born to achieve targets and serve every one all equally without any prejudice.
You are totally a role model to anybody in the world for a great inspiration.
Your Best match 3, 5, 6, 9. Good match 2
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Aba brethren are a bunch of people who seem to interest
me. I woke up this morning with goose pimples all over my
body because of the harmattan cold. I almost went back to
bed but I changed my mind when I remembered it was
sunday. I got prepared and I arrived Spring Of Life Bible
Church quite late. Sunday school was almost over. As soon
as the pastor concluded that session with prayers, the man
sitting beside me stood up and went straight to him and
took the microphone. He was the moderator. His bogus
faded velvet suit told that he probably was an evangelist.
Aba brethren love big clothes especially suit. This can
enable them practice radical Christianity. That kind that will
make an evangelist fight with a man because he has
refused to give his life to Christ or bring out a gun and force
him to accept Jesus as his personal Lord and Savior. Your
suit can never be shaped, it must be bogus by force. That's
the proof that you are an evangelist in Aba. It was time for
opening Prayers and worship. Sis. Nkechi Ikemefuna came
out and took over the microphone. Her session was for
10minutes but she used over 30minutes. That's why I call
her Sis. Nkechi Ikemefuna. She is a true Aba woman. Her
white and white suit with matching pink hat and shoes told
it all. She sang all the Igbo songs she knew because she
wasnt sure of holding the microphone another time. "This is
a rare opportunity" she must have thought to herself.
"Halerula". "Amen" we chorused. "Amem" she said again
and we answered "Amen". I wondered what happened to
her tongue, I hope it wasn't cut. She sang an Igbo song I
love to sing: Mma mma diri gi Chineke mma mma diri gi
onye oma. I sang along because even though I don't know
the meaning I just love the song. "Testimony time! The Lord
has done something good for you and your family, come out
and testify", said the moderator. All the people that came
out to testify proved fully that they were Aba brethren. They
made verbal expressions like; "yesterday I went back home
jumping", "I want to proove to THE satan that The Lord is
Good", "I knew her as Aunty Chima but now she's married,
she is Mummy Overall". I just couldn't help myself but
laugh. The mother of the pastor who just got married came
out to testify. She looked in her mid 70's. The vibrancy with
which she gave the testimony marvelled me. I was amazed
at how a woman of such age could be so active. Now I
believe that it is in old age that the strength of Aba women
lie. With gestures she said, "When the devil came to tell me
rubbish about my son, I just kick him, he fall down for
ground then I say ge ta way you dia make I pass." They talk
of combating with the devil like they are visualising him
face to face and if they dont beat him up at that spot then
they are not Aba brethren. Sis. Nkechi Ikemefuna came out
again. "Brethrens praaaaaa...ise Master Jesus! Amem!
Halerula lae!" After testifying with so much gestures, she
went to her seat so happy and fulfilled that she handled the
microphone the second time. Sis. Nkechi Ikemefuna kept
laughing at everything and nothing that was funny. Since
she was sitting in front, she would occationally turn back and
the only person she could see in the great crowd of
witnesses was me, expecting me to laugh back with her, but
I gave her a smile. A cold smile. I didn't want her to think a
witch had come to her church. On a normal basis, I would
not have given her another reason to turn back again. After
testimonies, Brother Chidubem Alfonsus came around to
share envelops for tithe and offering. The tithe envelop
resembled the kind we used back in school for our research
and project work. It was really big! "How much tithe are
they expecting us to give", I thought to myself. Service was
over finally and we were all expected to go around and
greet people. I just carried my bad and everything I came to
church with and quietly walked out before Sis. Nkechi
Ikemefuna will locate me.
When I got home, I rested because I knew the kind of
journey I would be embarking on a few moments from then. I ate as soon as I woke
up from my short nap. We gathered our things and hit the
road for Calabar ...

Written by Cara 'Elizabeth' Robert
A 300 Level student of English and Literary Studies at the University of Calabar, Calabar. 


"... You know, you don't exactly look like one of them. What's your name again?"

"Udeme," she tried to hide her anger as she moved to and fro the kitchen picking up and washing the dirty plates.

"Look, I said I always dress this way whenever I'm at home. I didn't expect 'this' to happen today." She emphasized, thoroughly scrubbing the plates and wishing she could scrub Chris's mouth with the iron sponge in her hand.

"It's not what's on the box that matters, it's what's in the box right?"

Chris grinned.
He eyed her from neck to knee, looking ferociously at the fleshly thighs beneath her denim shorts and her flat stomach slightly visible through her blouse.
She moved uneasily to the dustbin, aware of his stares. Chris balanced himself on a short kitchen stool next to the door.

"So," He dragged, "I thought the Bible says one shouldn't push another to sin."

"Am i?" She froze and gave him a cold stare.

He noded petulantly. Aware that he was getting on her nerves and also enjoying his uncommon success in getting her to talk.

"Well, what does a juju-carrying-bible-paraphrasing guy know about God? I bet you also know Matthew 18:9." She hissed, trying as hard as possible to maintain her cool while wiping the ceramic plates with a clean cloth.

"And if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: it is better for thee to enter into life with one eye, rather than having two eyes to be cast into hell fire, Matthew 18:19." Chris smirked.

"I stand to be corrected then. A juju-carrying-bible-quoting ..."

*Gun shots*

Immediately, she scrambled towards Chris holding his waist as he himself within a mili second had already crawled under the kitchen cupboard. Silence. They listened for sounds of the armed robbers. Suddenly conscious of their awkward position with her hands  on his waist, she struggled to her feet and stood up, towering him.

"Get down! Get down!" He whispered hysterically.

"The robbers are still out there how can you be standing? For all we know they could've scaled the fence and right now be pointing a gun at your head from behind the window..." Chris babbled. He trailed off as he realized he had been making a fool of himself. She was looking at him, smiling.

"What?" His eyes burgeoned with fear. She let out a little chuckle as she assessed him sprawled up like a cat on the tiled floor. He was obviously shaken up by the gun shots.

"What do you think about God, Chris?" Udeme's smile softened.

"I'm not talking about your charms, I mean Jesus." She said.

Taken aback. He forgot about the armed robbers and sat up on the kitchen tiles. For once, he couldn't remember ever being asked a question so direct as that.
He shot her an angry look, his eyes were bloodied. His fear was quickly replaced by something else, something more dreadful.


Ooh yeah! Today feels like Christmas. I woke up this morning with the harmattan seriously attacking my nose. It's almost already the end of the year and I've been revisiting the list of goals that i had set earlier this year. Mhm, one of them was to:

Have one million naira in my bank account. 

We aren't there yet but we're getting there soon! Me, myself and i.

So check your 2015 goals, how many have you accomplished yet?

Why are we so afraid of talking about some issues?

I write this with very deep bruises in my heart, with profound sadness, sadness and any other synonym of sadness that can be used here.
I recently read the story of Lotanna aka Sugabelly for people that know that story too, whether the entire story is real or faux it touched the very essence of my being that i could not just ignore the matter.
Her story is like that of a realistically horror-filled American movie.
I don't need to be raped first to know that rape isn't something of a joke. I am a Christian and inasmuch as i want to talk about Jesus so much i also want to talk about issues like this which many people in this 'we' country avoid or ignore.
Sugabelly has been sharing the story of her rape for years but only now did we take her serious! When i read through the comments on her blog, my people i was shocked at the number of people who also narrated their own unfortunate sexual encounters in the comment box.
According to Mr. Evans Ufeli, a human rights lawyer,
"Nigeria has recorded only 18 rape
convictions in its legal history."
I am shocked!
Rape is one of those uncomfortable subjects in which not everyone in Nigeria enjoys talking about, it's always so easily dismissed by the instant conclusion that the victim is usually 'always at fault.' Even a child of 5 is at fault? Little wonder why assaulted victims rarely open up for fear of too many 'Chief Judges.'
Why are we so tensed talking about some things? We easily talk about how inefficient the government is, oil bunkering, unemployment, but how about domestic violence? Autism? Dyslexia? Stockholm's Syndrome? Rape?
Are they just trivial issues too?


Seriously! I've always known there was something magical, mythical and mysterious about simply BELIEVING. 
So God created the entire world by speaking and believing, after all he's God, but wait, didn't he say we are gods too? That means you can simply believe the invisible into matter, sounds impossible?
I recently read an amazing book titled "50 Success Classics" by Tim Buttler Bowden. This book is utterly amazing! 
Studying the life of 50 successful and powerful people in the world over a period of over 2,000 years including Sun Tzu, one thing is evident in the lives of these successful people, it isn't just passion, isn't just diligence, it's a little thing called BELIEF. Yes your life is a sum total of your beliefs.
Henry Ford was meant to be a farmer like his dad but he had a passion and BELIEVED in something more. He quit his first job over his automobile dream, he quit his second again, even when people told him he couldn't make an automobile that could be affordable by all as an automobile then was mostly used by the rich, Henry Ford didn't quit, he knew he could do it. Many years later he did it! Although he faced many obstacles but boy o boy was his belief strong. 

Today, i didn't have even a penny on me to take a taxi to school and i wasn't willing to trek either, i had no choice anyway, i just had to trek. But before i left for school i told myself that i wouldn't have to trek, i told myself that i was going to ask my mom for money and she WOULD give it to me and also, someone would pick up to school. I simply believed and these two things happened to me just as i had believed. 
See what the Bible says about believing too in Matt 21:22.

Don't just believe and stand there, work hard and believe!


Author's Note

My exams are coming up, data just got finished and i wrote a couple of things i thought were poems, when i had nothing doing. 


I'd stroll into the darkest oceans of the world
Saying I'll drown in my own tears would be a mere folklore
If i tell the stars to fall on me 
I would only shine brighter in my death

Show me the world
Show me the incredible things i never knew existed
And give my lungs a reason, another reason 
To Live and to love.


I feel strange
I want to be strange
But am i right to be?

Every night before i close my eyes
I feel like a god
No aphrodisiacs
No strong waters
No warm man
Only a cloud of voices in my head

I hear them every night
Whenever i close my eyes
Children, old men, mothers
They say things to me
Though i hear them
I never can understand them
They speak all at once

Who are you?
Are you the voices of the souls
I stand for?
I wish i knew
I wish i could tell.


I am allowed to speak only in my mind
To speak out loud through my lips
would be a sacrilege
They say I'm not to be heard
Not even to be seen
My formal education is not important
My opinions do not matter
My thoughts make no sense
I am made to think i cannot think
So i only think to myself
And even in my thinking I feel inferior to myself
And when they laugh
I do so with them
Silently and halfheartedly
Because the prompts of their laughter have no iota of my own thoughts in them
But only the thoughts of the men


I have two sisters
Did i mention that i have two sisters
And that I love them
My two beautiful healthy sisters

Do you know me
Do you know who i am
I was a vase
Once originally white and ceramic
Decorated with beautiful flowers
Pink, blue and once Innocent
But now
My white is near black
The once ceramic vase is now broken beyond repairs
The only repairs that can be done would have tell-tale signs of my brokenness
Today i have cried a thousand times without the tears
Because my body is weak and frail
Because I'm tired of seeing mom cry secretly
Because the teasing and bullying in school have become unbearable
Because i was born with a disease
Because the chemos don't make me happy
And because today i have thought of how a rope can end my unseen tears and my troubles


Does anybody wonder with me why the most beautiful days of our lives have to be so baleful.

I was taught in my drama and theatre class that conflict is a crucial component in plotting any story or play. No wonder Cinderella had troubles as well.
I'd love to know anybody who has lived his entire life in total utopia because such a life exists in 'nowhere' in my mind. But such a life do i crave for.
A world where the only religion is love and the only race is human.
Does anybody wonder with me why the most beautiful days of our lives have to be so baleful.
Doesn't it tear you apart to watch the downcrested-ness of man?
There are no more dreams in the great beyond, no more wishful thoughts to ponder upon in hades.
Why don't we join our dreams together now and try to resolve some conflicts that bother our fellow men; not for ourselves but for others, for our children and our children's children.


Does anybody wonder with me what life truly means? what really is the value of life? They say life is all about finding your purpose. Is life all about us?
Do you ever look at an elderly person and wonder what you would have done for people when you are that age. What people would truly celebrate you for. How many lives you would have blessed in your old age.
If I were eighty years today, what would I have wished I had done while I was still twenty?
I would wish that I had read continuously, I would wish that I had applied for many competitions, I would wish that I had written down everything life changing on my mind just as it was and posted it for the world to see, I would wish that I had spoken to everybody I had the opportunity to speak to but yet had shied away, I would wish that I had published many poems, my journal of a broken teen, novels, etc, I would wish that I had worked on a broadcasting corporation, I would wish that I had told certain and many more people about my joy in Jesus Christ, I would wish that I had written more songs and sang them, I would wish that I had gone out and met many people, I would wish that I had paid people's school fees, I would wish that my songs had healed broken hearted people, I would wish that I had spoken to teenagers about Christ, sexuality and  simply being teens, I would wish that I had helped people more, I would have wished that I showed my mother and father more love, I would wish that I had been more inspiring and overcame my fears, I would wish I had prayed and read my bible more, I would wish that I was bolder and more outspoken.

How about you, what would you have wished for?

The best part of it us that we are not even eighty years old yet, so what are we doing with our time? Why not start doing and stop wishing.

Something i learned from MTV Shuga

Mally and Nii


Sophie and Mally

I tell you, i am a BIG BIG fan of MTV Shuga. It's not like watching Telemundo or ZeeWorld (trust me i detest those channels).
MTV Shuga portrays real life stories which i can relate to.
Yesterday, i believe i finished season 3 and got into season 4 — don't worry a season has less than 10 super short episodes.
Let's take a look at a character's life there:
MALLY a.k.a Malaika: is a university student marrried to Nii. Mally doesn't want to have babies yet, but her husband desperately wants her to. Everyday, he beats Mally blue black red and she can't speak up, but her best friend, Sophie, knows about it and advises her to leave her husband.
Now Sophie is a runs babe. Well, her life is pretty messed up and all. She's fortunate enough not to get AIDS but her sister is not as fortunate as she, she gets pregnant and also contacts AIDS.
Aren't those familiar stories?


Sophie: Yeah they call her Sophie so fine so fly so fresh and all that. But i wouldn't blame Sophie for all her runs, all her sleeping around and promiscuity. Sophie isn't so bad at all, she's actually a really nice person, i guess it was the Lagos life that had its toll on her. She wanted to survive in lagos, maybe (?) Sophie went through some stuff, almost contacting AIDS, almost getting raped by Leo, getting shot, etc. I can't judge her, there's something more to her life.

Princess: Uh huh! Sophie's naive younger sister. She practically got herself pregnant and contacted AIDS. I would simply say she's a typical teen with little or no sex orientation. If she had been properly guided on the consequences of premarital sex me thinks she wouldn't have been in the mess she got herself into.

I think MTV shuga has a lesson and a message for everyone. You can't contact AIDS by being friends with someone who has AIDS. People who have AIDS need to be shown lots of love. Yes they made a mistake but you can't take it out on them. It could've been you! Hey! You don't just get AIDS only by having sex, you could've been born with it or worse still used an infected object.
I don't know if i have any friend that has AIDS, e nor dey show for face, but if i did, i wouldn't run away from that person, I'd treat him or her like a normal person. 


Am i the only one that thinks about my death?
You may think that i have many years ahead of me but what if i die tomorrow?
What if i lay my head to rest tonight and wake up an old woman tomorrow?

Here are top 5 things people regret on their death beds and i will be sharing them.

1. I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself,
not the life others expected of me.

My sister always told me "DON'T LET ANYBODY MAKE YOU DO SOMETHING YOU DON'T WANT TO DO." And with these words have i survived till date. There's always so much pressure to live up to the expectations of others. Along the way we become men pleasers and lose focus on the ONE person we should actually be pleasing: GOD.
Like Nelson Mandela once said, "courage isn't the absence of fear but simply a triumph over it."

2. I wish I didn’t work so hard.
Sometimes we work too hard for the things that matter less in life. We work so hard for the fame, for the money, for the success. Forfeiting the time we could've spent with our families, building relationships.

3. I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.
I have a new pet word, feisty! Be feisty my love! Don't mince words. Learning how to say NO without mincing words has been one of the most beautiful highlights of my 2015. You should never hold a grudge against someone. Tell people how you feel.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.
They say old wine tastes better.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.
I let myself die on the inside. I did it to myself, nobody else did it. I chose to drown in my silence.
So you can choose not to let irrelevant thoughts weigh you down.